Unlike many others, life had very few happiness in store for me during my childhood days, my grand mother’s affection, dreams of my fantasy land while being awake and finally Sachin (not just his batting). For the past 16 years he has been a part of my life.
The intense-personal aspect of celebrity worship reflects intensive and compulsive feelings about the celebrity, akin to the obsessional tendencies of fans often referred to in the literature; for example “I share with my favorite celebrity a special bond that cannot be described in words” and “When something bad happens to my favorite celebrity I feel like it happened to me’”.
I seriously doubted this, so did lot of research about this concept and to find out If I am really mentally sick. The levels of attachment with Sachin was too huge to just ignore.
“Evidence indicates that poor mental health is correlated with celebrity worship. Researchers have examined the relationship between celebrity worship and mental health in United Kingdom adult samples. Maltby et al. (2001) found evidence to suggest that the intense-personal celebrity worship dimension was related to higher levels of depression and anxiety. Similarly, Maltby et al., in 2004, found that the intense-personal celebrity worship dimension was not only related to higher levels of depression and anxiety, but also higher levels of stress, negative affect, and reports of illness.”
So when I was about to conclude, that I am suffering the CWS, a statement from a hot shot celebrity broke it all. It was just after the test match against England in Chennai. When a super controlled innings of sachin ably supported by Yuvi won us the match. They were interviewed together, and Sachin was all praise for Yuvi, and if I remember correctly he said “Yuvi Played like a champion”. Then Yuvi said, “All through my young age I dreamed of playing along with Sachin and winning a test match for India, and today my dream came true”.
A lightning struck me, I used to have very similar dreams. Dreams of me coming in at 7 and partnering Sachin and taking India to a victory in a landmine of a pitch and at the end of the match sachin calling me as a champion player, and WOW can something be better than this? The only difference is, Yuvi went on to live his dreams. I got stuck, couldn’t play much because of family issues.
Yuvi had same fantasies, so I just thought there might as well many like me. I made a post in the Sachin Tendulkar community in Orkut and ‘Binga!!!’ one in every three share the same feeling. So, what can I conclude? I have company and a big company of numbers running in lakhs? or Is there something fundamentally very right about being a Sachin fan?
After that discussion I thought that there is something fundamentally very right about being a Sachin fan. Some may call these fans as fanatics, (a few address me like that), but there are many reasons behind that. I have a few reasons, so what I will try to do is, list out one reason for being a Sachin fanatic every day or a I will a share a fact about me (Of course related to sachin) every day.
One event created a fear in my mind. When sachin celebrated his 25th brirthday, there was a TV program where many greats spoke about sachin. It was a very good program. One person said (I don’t remember exactly who that person was) “This guy has achieved this much at such an young age, Just imagine what he would achieve by the time he retires. He has another 8 to years of cricket left in him”.
Oh My God!!! (That was a good Compliment) but that statement actually impacted me negatively. It created a fear in my mind that I can watch sachin only for another 8 years. So the duration for one of the biggest happiness’ in life for me as a 13 year old kid is going to be only for another 8 years. What will I do after that? What will be my source of happiness?
It was like someone telling you the date of your death and you keep counting your days. I kept counting my days from that time on. Then to my distress Sachin got injured regularly and decreased it futher (a solid two years to injury if you put everything together). Those 8 years passed, and then came 2007 world cup, and many thought that was an anticlimax to a Superman story. I was terrified.
A friend of mine named Vijayanand told me during the match in last november, that sachin started his career on the same day and he is going to end it on the same day. That speculation scared a s**t out of me. Then again a golden period arose. One thing never changes the happiness in seeing sachin on field (and of course the fear of him hanging his boots).
Now coming to the conclusion, Am I really suffering with this disease CMS? Some thing wrong with me in being a hard core sachin fan? Or am I right? I really don’t know. You know what? I have around 83 websites, but when I decided to blog about me and me alone in a new website in my name Ajithkumar.CC (that is my name just type my name in the browser, cool. Isn’t it?) that first post I made is this one. Just about sachin. So you tell me if I suffer with CMS or not? Your comments are my inspiration, please share what you think about this article